i think its some high time i seriously need to do reflection and skew things back to the so called right path..

maybe start w less serious things 1st? well..im a graduate now...results were out on tues, e day before..its below what i expected actually..i've got dist for international business, A for personal selling, B+ for hrm n service marketing B for IM and IMC..but well..kinda expected too though..cos i jus hoped to score better but come to think of it..i din put in tt much effort to acheive As and Distinctions..like the saying goes, the more hopes u hold the higher the disappointment will be..but well..what else can i expect for..i can only say, its not bad results or even good results but disappointing ones too..n at least my gpa din drop..it din went up either..its exactly the same..haiiz..and oh well..not forgetting my favorite module that has no credits, Calculas..distinction of cos..but well..no credits so it did no good nor bad to my gpa..hopefully it helps in any of e uni application..but i don think so..it only helps after u get in into e uni..in anycase..at least calculas dint disappoint me cos i really aimed to get an A for tis.. toking abt results..i realise this is the only sem i think that non examinable modules scored As and above..al along..examinable modules always do much better than non examinable ones...hmmm..

recently..somehow or rather..the essence of happy or fun or what life should actually be is missing..mayb i have been counting on myself too much rather than on living on God's mercy and grace..have i changed recently?maybe someone can jus tell me..otherwise y do everything seems to be different this few wks? everything jus seems distant..its not like everything goes wrong but jus the absent of something which i dunno how to describe.. however, one thing for sure, i have been a disappointment recently and i know God's disappointed w me..v much disappointed w me..n im disappointed w myself too..but jus how shd i go abt to make these stuff change for the better?

im passing everyday like im wasting my time..i dunno..like i said everything jus don seem to feel right or they arent right..but they arent exactly wrong either..i dunno...