life isnt easy nor smooth recently...its a learning experience though..

ultimate camp was pretty fun i guess..n some how within those night talks, within those night briefings and meetings..i realize things arent tt simple after all..the simple game of ultimate, the club full of love and bonds are now full of politics..its feels and seems as if the club's gonna fall, the club's gonna lose the championship title...there are so many many many issues..its like where's the time where we play becos of passion?becos of friendships, becos of each and every teammate becos its ultimate?

in the camp, we had this letter box and where u could put msges into it for the person..some were really encouraging, some really nice and motivating, but some kind of brings a person down..but ytd, i never regretted leaving camp early to church..becos He taught me, showed me, comforted me and bring me back once again.since the time i step into the church, the time i sat in the room for cet lesson where bro james started his lesson on the call of leadership, everything started to come..boom boom boom.the center of my heart so strongly that i cant deny anything. its all for sure, God's targetting at me..bro james also shared abt the attitude of insufficiency and humanity. it hit directly at the v root of the issue.cet ended, went on for youth service. the moment we started, He came again, even b4 praise, paula shared her story, it strike agn, even the normal praise song that we sang so many many many times alrdy was so different, blessed be your name. the second song was even harder, it came even stronger.there's no way for me to stop, i just cant. tears rolled, i cried even stronger during worship.

Ps daniel shared a small sharing before his sermon, totally tt strike me again and during his actual sermon, there's nth i can do. everything of me is occupied, He jus spoke so strongly in my heart, in fact all He did was jus tug my heart, my feelings, my thoughts. but tts where all the answers and comfort came. i knelt at His feet, right at the alter, and all of it just came in..i just felt better in every way..He said, "Whoever believes in him is not condemned"John 3:18. He also said,"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:12-13

In all the issues, He gave me His answer, my pride, humanity. He explained insufficiency when i question if anyone can really lack nothing in the world, and the answer wasnt whether one could or could not, but the consequences. He reminded me, in everything, He made it happen no matter sorrow or joy.But He also reminded me He's my comforter, my shelter, my everything and that i can always count on Him.He'll always be here for me right beside me but even so, dun take Him for granted. After which i asked Him how, how shd i go forth from here, how do i surrender everything to Him. He also answered. Keep whts right and give whts wrong to Him. Work everything from the start once again.Be a disciple of Christ, start from the basic.Everything i needed, everything i had, He took them all and delivered me.

And my answer is, "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also" Matt 6:21, Luke 12:24. so where my treasure is, my heart will be. and all my treasures isnt the rewards, isnt the title of a champion isnt everything abt that but the friendships and bonds we built. the times we shared. the times we ran sucides and train to the max of our abilities. the times we counted on each other for strength. and thats all that i will play for.tts wht i'll play for this year. and with that, its certains me of all the complicated matters, the politics the problems.

becos He is worthy of me, my everything.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you." Matt 7:7.