im agn stuck btwn 2 decisions..i fricking hate it.esp when i make e wrong one.life seriously sux man..work sux.and wht its suppose to b holidays!im screwing everything up.f myself!

ben ask today if i wanna join dk n join dk training.he ask if i can commit he noes i hav a prob w that...dk training is sat 9 to 12.but e prob is sat got service prac.though its not lyk everywk but its practically 3 times a month?i oso dunno if dk is really wht i want..i oso dunno if i can really commit.i fricking dunno everyting!im damn pissed n frustrated!work sux life happenings sux decision making sux i dunno.everything is jus isnt in e way and they are bad damn negative!work. huhhuh..can i resign?lol..arent i asking the impossible?!hw man hw can i make life better man.. worse is service prac is nvr on a fixed time sometimes sun sometimes sat.n even laggi worse i dun even noe when i'll be on duty y?cos the schedule is nvr accurate.but wht can i do abt it?feedback?hw many thousand times hav i done so alrdy?i might nt be better i might be better whichever the case, i learnt to keep my mouth shut.but i suppose it comes w a price..

i think God's punishin me agn..i really a dissappointment!i dunno wht to do.i cant not do anything as well.n i noe this isnt e life i want!**** it! i dunno hw to describe everything. i jus wish i could give everything up.or best slp n nvr ever wake up.selfish?i really dunno hw to move on.